When I was seeing a therapist last year he helped me discover that I am a perfectionist. At first I laughed at him. "Have you seen my house lately? It would prove your theory wrong!" I've always been somewhat of a clutter bug (clean toilets, mind you, but clutter laying around). And then we started discussing what a perfectionist is I realized that he might be on to something.
The definition (found here): a person who demands perfection of himself, herself, or others.
Notice that this doesn't say 'achieves' perfection. It says 'demands' perfection. This is what I do. More so from myself but I find myself demanding it from others too. I think I have an issue with clutter because I give up. If I can't do it 'perfect' then I won't do it at all so I can avoid the frustration it causes!
So, how does this work with my diet? Well, as I mentioned in my previous post, I've made little mistakes here and there on the plan and it is literally maddening for me. When I realize what I've done it drives me crazy! It's all I think about. It's hard to let go of that mistake and move on. I guess the upside is that for the first time in MANY years I'm determined to not give up. I want this so badly that I find myself working twice as hard not to make the same mistake twice.
Having said all this, I weighed in today. Down another 1.5 lbs! I was genuinely surprised! This just helped me realize that even when I make small mistakes I can still have good outcomes!
This message brought to you by the letter 'P' and the number '8'.
5 comments:
I had that exact experience when someone called me Type A. We are a lot alike apparently. ;o)
Steph-- we are soul sisters!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG...I have actually said the EXACT same thing you said in the third paragraph to my husband a number of times. Though, I definitely knew I was a ...well, you know...the P word! My house wouldn't testify to it in many ways but its the same logic you mentioned...if I can't do it right... perfect (no one else could either of course :) then to heck with it!
I'm so proud of your determination. So happy we are sharing this journey! So happy to have met you! Keep a trucking girl...you're in the lead, right?
Me too.
You inspire me. *sigh*
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